“O lord, thou hast searched me, and known me. Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off.”
I shutter in fear and shame, when I realize You have seached me, and known me. That You know what I’ve done and what I will do.
You understand my most secret and sin-full thoughts, my doubts, my fears, my lusts, my anger, and my pain.
I cry. Knowing You love me, even while You know the worst of me.
I will never understand, Your mercy and grace. I am, at peace, in Your love.
I long to lead the lost to Your throne, that they should receive Your mercy and grace in their times of need.
I desire Your Holy Spirit to comfort the broken hearted and heal the hurting.
I long to Praise and Worship You, in Spirit and in truth,
“Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.”
Lead and guide me, protect me, from the wickedness that still lies within.
Clean my heart, renew my mind by the washing of Your Word. Return to me the joy of Thy Salvation, let not my slothful ways cause me to stray.
The path to the Holy of Holies, is the way I will walk.
I seek Your face, Your love fills my heart.
I tremble in fear, for I know Lord, You’re near.
Lord, hear my cry, supply all my needs.
My deepest desire, is to love you my King, my Lord, and Most High.
I would that my actions, my thoughts, and the words of my testimony, all please You.
Protect us O’ Lord from those who would flesse us, and cause us pain.