I am disappointed!   WHY?  Because I believe the Scripture.

1 Corinthians: 4:20
“For the kingdom of God is not in word, but in power.”

When I was first seeking God, I begged Him to show me that He was a God of Power and Might, not just words.

Growing up in a Catholic Church, I heard all the words, wondered at the mystery, and was disappointed with the reality.

When I was saved, I was introduced to a God of Power and Might,  a God, who was alive, loving, comforting, healing, who gave true joy and peace.

A God who knew and provided my needs before I knew them myself.  He was within me, around me, all I sought, wanted or needed.

I was part of a community of believers.  Bold, working in  the Gifts and Calling of the Lord.

Acts 4:29-31
King James Version (KJV)
And now, Lord, behold their threatenings: and grant unto thy servants, that with all boldness they may speak thy word,

By stretching forth thine hand to heal; and that signs and wonders may be done by the name of thy holy child Jesus.

And when they had prayed, the place was shaken where they were assembled together; and they were all filled with the Holy Ghost, and they spake the word of God with boldness.”

Where did their boldness come from?  The Lord stretching forth His hand to heal, and signs and wonders happening by the Name of Jesus.

Some 30+ years later, I am disappointed!  The body of believers don’t believe. 

We see few if any signs and wonders, we stay home from Church when sick, so we don’t spread our colds or flu.

We don’t expect signs, wonders and miracles, they just don’t happen anymore.   WHY NOT?

Is God not the same yesterday, today and forever?  

Has His ability to preform said works, diminished? 

Expired? 

Has he forgotten how?

No, we seem to be content, we are saved, loved by God, the redeemed of the Lord. 

What more could we want?

I will tell you what I want! 

The Power of God, in my life, real, and mighty for the pulling down of strong holds, powerful for the saving of souls.

Wonderful for healing, comforting, bringing peace and joy to the afflicted, the lost, depressed, all those in need of a touch from God.

The Kingdom of God in POWER.  The Lord honoring His Promises in MY LIFE.

How and when, will I see this?  When I am totally His. 

When we like Elijah,  speak and act on His Word, even in the face of the King.  When we tell His story like Stephen, even as we are being stoned to death.

We are not bold.  We are not powerful.  We really are not faithful, true to His calling, active in His work.

Well maybe you are… 

I sure fall short.  I am disapointed, desolate and afflicted.  I long to be true, called, chosen and faithful.

I have answered the call, been accepted into the chosen.  My failure, is in being faithful.

I am the problem.  “I”, “I”, “I”…  this truth is devastating.

Like this home, covered in ivy, the temple of the Holy Spirit within me, is covered and strangled by my wants, desires, my sin and shame.

Lord, please, change my heart, my mind, my life.  May I be a man after Your own heart and desires. 

May I be a vessel, You can use to proclaim Your Kingdom in Power. 

May Your promise of signs, wonders and miracles follow… Because I believe.   Amen